Archive for November 2012

Fowl Play in Phoenix



            It was a Monday evening, cold and wet, and the weekend seemed as distant as Mars. The winter nights had grown chill, even in our desert state. Samantha and I sat around the kitchen table and discussed how to bury the bird.
            Samantha was all for waiting until next weekend, and I for doing the deed tonight, but as good roommates we engaged in debate. Lamplight illuminated the table and we sat in its honey glow. The shoebox-turned-coffin rested awkwardly beside us. Inside lay Pigwidgeon, the bird in question. He had been a cheerful parakeet in life, and the house seemed strangely quiet without his chatter.
             We acquired Pig in our first year of college. A mascot for freedom and adulthood, his demise was tragic, though more for loss of symbol than otherwise. Our haphazard care was not enough to sustain him, and he dropped in a flame of blue-feathered glory one cold, winter weeknight.
            Our options were slim. The bird was in need of interment and we had hardly the time. Between college classes and evening shifts our hours were numbered. Poor Pig had picked an inconvenient time to die. Samantha and I came to the conclusion that the send-off must be that very night. However, the hard ground and late hour was proving to be problematic. It had rained the previous weekend, and the air was chill. The burial must be quick and easy. We wallowed in our predicament before happening upon a solution.
            We would cremate him.
            How difficult could it be anyway? We had a fire pit in the backyard and kindling to spare. It was the perfect plan.
            We were momentarily deterred when we discovered that the stock of firewood was damp from the rain, but we were not to be thwarted. Armed with a candle lighter and the latest edition of cosmopolitan we went on with our work. Soon we had a small fire smoldering beneath the stars. Samantha carried the cardboard coffin. Pigwidgeon rolled about uncomfortably inside. When the flames seemed hot enough we shook out our blue little bird into the heart of it and watched as his feathers began to blaze.
            We both said a few words, and Samantha suggested we sing his favorite song. A Dream is a Wish Your Heart Makes is not ordinary funeral accompaniment, but who were we to deny our pet his last rites? Before us the fire sparked and hissed; the bird burned like some occult offering. The flames died down and we went on with our night.
            In the days to follow Pig hardly crossed our minds. It wasn’t until the suggestion was raised that our magazine fire may not have done the trick that we returned once again to the fire pit. There Pig sat in the ash heap, wings folded close, like a torpedo hurdling through congested waters. He was barely distinguishable until we noticed the beak and a few moldering feathers still stubbornly hanging on.
            The cremation of our pet was our college hubris, a fatal flaw still haunted by the bones of a poorly interred bird.
            

upon giving up my childhood friend


Roxy,

            Here’s to all the nights you started out at the foot of my bed and we awoke to sharing the same pillow. To the home we both grew up in, the only place you ever felt truly comfortable. I miss it too.
            We’ve had a long run, you and I. Seven years will make up about half your life. It’s already a third of mine. I remember the day we brought you home, so small, a gift for Dad. It soon became clear that you were really mine.
            Maybe it’s because we’re so alike that you claimed me for your own. Mom always said you were me in cat form. You waited up for me and when I came home from work or school you were always right there by the door. You memorized the sound of my car locking, the way my footsteps echoed in the driveway. You waited faithfully.
            When I’d go out of town for weeks in the summer you were grumpy and upset. I’d come home and you’d be angry until I smothered you in kisses and held you close. You pretended not to like it, but I know you really did.
            It was music you loved the most. You’d sit beside me on the piano bench and tap the keys with your paw while I played. Whenever I sang you would find me and purr with all your might. Your purr was comforting. I would lay my head on your belly and listen when I was sad. You always knew when I needed you. You didn’t even mind when your fur grew wet from catching my tears. You would purr still harder and lick my face and hands.
            Do you carry the memories too? Can you, in your cat-mind, hold anything beyond knowing when I’ll feed you next and what kind of yogurt you like best? I know you’re only a cat but sometimes you seem nearly human and I can understand how we love those who are only quiet and faithful. Your utter dependence brings us joy. You are so special to me.
            I recall the long car rides to the vet and back. You became frightened and I sang to you to make you feel even just a little bit safer. You made me feel safe sometimes too. In the dark when the house creaked and groaned in the wind I would hold you close until I fell asleep.
            I started college and all the family moved away. You made me feel like something of home remained. When Zack and I married you loved him too, even though you are shy and love few. You were our first baby. When we sang together you’d find us and purr, kneading the pillows with your paws to show just how happy you were. That usually made up for all the times you threw up on the carpet and we stepped in it.
            Your odd quirks made us laugh. Knocking my clock off the desk every morning, opening cabinets, pushing your paws under the doors, babying anything that sat still long enough to lick. Many pets came and went over the course of my childhood, but you stayed always. Faithful.
             

"As for man, his days are like grass; as a flower of the field, so he flourishes. When the wind has passed over it, it is no more, and its place acknowledges it no longer. But the lovingkindness of the LORD is from everlasting to everlasting on those who fear Him, and His righteousness to children's children, to those who keep His covenant and remember His precepts to do them." (Psalm 103:15-18)

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